The Update – Single Status, Sugar Addiction & Weight Loss, The Biz

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Single Status Update

The Cowboy is over with.  This post is the end of my thoughts of him, not that I’ve spent all that much time since Saturday.  But this is my final post about it.  Sure, sad to see him go, he’s sweet and nice and funny and a total gentleman and I love a guy on a tractor.  But in the end, I want a relationship and he didn’t.  So we’re not going to work until one of us changes.  Maybe somewhere in the future we’ll meet up again but I’m not going to bother stressing about it.  I’ve also decided that I was against the whole online dating thing before and I still am (clarification: I’m not against it in general, I’ve done it a few times, on a few sites and it’s not for me at this point in my life.  Maybe I’ll change my mind in the future!).  So I will quit the active search for Mr. Right and Mr. Right Now, focus on living my life.  Somewhere out there is The Guy I Should Be With.  I need to simply be open to possibilities, opportunities and keep on truckin’.

Sugar Addiction & Weight Loss Update

On to this getting rid of sugar from my diet business.  Well, I haven’t.  I’ve made strides in that direction.  Of course, I back pedaled a bit, but then I went forward a bit.  All in all, not exactly a crowning accomplishment, but I’m working on it.  I will say this, I’m trying not to be vocal about my plans.  Ok, I’m putting this out on a pubic blog where anyone, anytime can access it.  So saying I’m not being vocal about it is a little silly sounding.  Except – well, I’m not TALKING about it.  So you might be part of my offline life and read this and know that I’m doing it, but because I’m not constantly talking about it, it’s not so in-your-face.

Why am I not talking about it?  Well, occasionally I say I’m going to do this and I fail.  And I hate to fail publicly.  I have done it and occasionally it’s good for the ego, but this time, I don’t want to.  I want to document my struggles, challenges and hopefully significant successes.  But I feel like I want to keep this quiet.  I just simply want to share my challenges, revelations and successes with you as I go.

The Biz

So, I may have found a second avenue to sell my product through.  I’m pretty excited!  I still need insurance, so there’s no cooking until that’s been dealt with, but I am testing my products at home.  Let’s just say it’s going to be a tasty Christmas for my friends! :)  So needless to say, I’m quite pleased with how this could turn out!

I’m hoping, of course, that I can make my Great Escape from the working world sooner rather than later, but the truth is, I’d be dead excited if someone bought my product!

Words of Wisdom

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I’m on a search for a mantra, in my search I’ve come across these beautiful words.  Each speaks to a different part of me.  I hope you will find some personal meaning in one or more of them!

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So Long Cowboy…

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Well, it was made official today.  He doesn’t think it’s going to work.  And he’s sorry.  Me too.  The Cowboy is a good guy.  I’m not angry, but I am hurt.  I wanted it to work.  I hoped he’d ditch The Chickie and realize that I am amazing and that I’m the one he should be with.  And he may yet, let’s be honest, there’s a lot more life to live.  I’m not going to hold my breath but I suppose anything could happen.

I don’t know why it’s going to work, maybe it’s the other girl, maybe it’s that I want a relationship and he doesn’t.  Maybe he’s just not feeling it.  Maybe he’s just not that interested in me.  Who knows.  I didn’t ask.  JP thought I should, but it doesn’t really matter to me.  In the end it’s the same result… I won’t be seeing him anymore.

Of course my first reaction was to call SP and say that I’m never going to be liked again, there’s no one else in this world for me.  It’s unlikely to be true.  And The Cowboy wasn’t the first guy to be interested in me, he’s just the first one I wanted to pursue something with.

I’ll say this though, I’ve really been back in touch with my country side and that may have something to do with The Cowboy.  I guess he should get credit for not just being honest and a gentleman but for putting me facing the right direction.

So long Cowboy.  It was a short but good run.  You’re gonna miss out on having a helluva woman in your life, but you’ll figure that out pretty soon.  ;-)  Of that I’m sure.

I Am a Business Owner!

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Today I officially purchased my business name: Country Girl Cooks.  Scary, exciting, amazing and so cool!  This means I have to do this.  I mean, I WANT to, but now I HAVE to.  I owe it to myself to try hard to make this a go.  And I so want it.

I’m disillusioned with my job.  Have been for some time now.  I don’t hate my job in human resources.  In fact, I still love HR and what the potential is for it in a company.  However, I’m not progressing at a rate that makes me happy.  And so, rather than continue to frustrate myself and possibly do a bad job, it’s time for me to ignite the spark as far as my career is concerned.  And to do that, I think I need to get out of it and find something new to do.

Despite this very exciting news, I’m having an off day.  Feeling down about The Cowboy.  Wondering if I’ll ever hear from him again since I’ve decided that I’m not initiating contact anymore.  Do you know how hard that is for someone like me?  I’m a talker.  A friendly person.  Someone who likes to maintain contact with people.  I want to know that I’m liked, special, wanted.  I’m not the only one he’s dating (although the only one I’m seeing) and it’s killing me to not know who she is.  Not that it would change much because I’d be constantly comparing myself but now I wonder if she hears from him more than me, what do they do together… you can see how this spins out of control.  Mostly I can stand the fact that he’s seeing her, but he needs to show that he’s interested in me.  I need to feel special and like I’m not the only one making an effort.  I suppose I shall find out in the next week or so how that goes!

But, despite The Cowboy and all that stuff, I am a business owner.  And I couldn’t be more excited to have this project to work on and this business to create for my future!

Finding My Roots

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Lately I’ve really been exploring who I am at my core.  What things ground me and speak to my soul.  I suppose Mom is having a hand in it, The Cowboy is definitely remind me of my country roots each time I see him.  One of the things that I really am finding that is me is my baking/cooking.  Cooking for me feeds my soul, it nourishes me to cook and feed others.  Which is why I’m seriously thinking that I want to start-up a new business using my country sensibilities and my love of food.

I have a long way to go before I’m ready to go, but ideally by Spring of 2012 I’ll be ready to go.  I’m very much wanting to be my own boss and I really want to get back to my roots.  My love of canning comes from 30 years of canning tomatoes, pasta sauce, green relish and occasionally pickles.  Many years have been spent in the kitchen with my mom.  I also know when I am in the kitchen, she’s right with me.

My dream is to open a small little store where people can buy my sauces, jams, jellies and meals and then get some prepared foods to eat or take away for breakfast or lunches.  Nothing fancy, rather, food like mom used to make!  Something about this just makes me feel good, nurturing, cozy and in control of my own future!

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