Today I officially purchased my business name: Country Girl Cooks.  Scary, exciting, amazing and so cool!  This means I have to do this.  I mean, I WANT to, but now I HAVE to.  I owe it to myself to try hard to make this a go.  And I so want it.

I’m disillusioned with my job.  Have been for some time now.  I don’t hate my job in human resources.  In fact, I still love HR and what the potential is for it in a company.  However, I’m not progressing at a rate that makes me happy.  And so, rather than continue to frustrate myself and possibly do a bad job, it’s time for me to ignite the spark as far as my career is concerned.  And to do that, I think I need to get out of it and find something new to do.

Despite this very exciting news, I’m having an off day.  Feeling down about The Cowboy.  Wondering if I’ll ever hear from him again since I’ve decided that I’m not initiating contact anymore.  Do you know how hard that is for someone like me?  I’m a talker.  A friendly person.  Someone who likes to maintain contact with people.  I want to know that I’m liked, special, wanted.  I’m not the only one he’s dating (although the only one I’m seeing) and it’s killing me to not know who she is.  Not that it would change much because I’d be constantly comparing myself but now I wonder if she hears from him more than me, what do they do together… you can see how this spins out of control.  Mostly I can stand the fact that he’s seeing her, but he needs to show that he’s interested in me.  I need to feel special and like I’m not the only one making an effort.  I suppose I shall find out in the next week or so how that goes!

But, despite The Cowboy and all that stuff, I am a business owner.  And I couldn’t be more excited to have this project to work on and this business to create for my future!