Well, it was made official today.  He doesn’t think it’s going to work.  And he’s sorry.  Me too.  The Cowboy is a good guy.  I’m not angry, but I am hurt.  I wanted it to work.  I hoped he’d ditch The Chickie and realize that I am amazing and that I’m the one he should be with.  And he may yet, let’s be honest, there’s a lot more life to live.  I’m not going to hold my breath but I suppose anything could happen.

I don’t know why it’s going to work, maybe it’s the other girl, maybe it’s that I want a relationship and he doesn’t.  Maybe he’s just not feeling it.  Maybe he’s just not that interested in me.  Who knows.  I didn’t ask.  JP thought I should, but it doesn’t really matter to me.  In the end it’s the same result… I won’t be seeing him anymore.

Of course my first reaction was to call SP and say that I’m never going to be liked again, there’s no one else in this world for me.  It’s unlikely to be true.  And The Cowboy wasn’t the first guy to be interested in me, he’s just the first one I wanted to pursue something with.

I’ll say this though, I’ve really been back in touch with my country side and that may have something to do with The Cowboy.  I guess he should get credit for not just being honest and a gentleman but for putting me facing the right direction.

So long Cowboy.  It was a short but good run.  You’re gonna miss out on having a helluva woman in your life, but you’ll figure that out pretty soon.  ;-)  Of that I’m sure.